I Do Not Want What I Haven’t Got,
Ensign Records, Ltd., March 20, 1990
Track Listing: 1. Feel So Different, 2. I Am Stretched on Your Grave, 3. Three Babies, 4. The Emperor’s New Clothes, 5. Black Boys on Mopeds, 6. Nothing Compares 2U, 7. Jump in the River, 8. You Cause As Much Sorrow, 9. The Last Day of Our Acquaintance, 10. I Do Not Want What I Haven’t Got
Youthful introspection and angst is fleeting.
The power of its beauty burning, then cold.
Fiery passions swirl only one day to drown.
Twisting nights ’round speechless … alone.
A fight to assert ultimately ceases.
Defeated in worthlessness, as charged by foes.
Pummeled by time.
Induced to sleep with eyes swollen closed.
“I am not like I was before
I thought that nothing would change me”
-from “Feel So Different”
Slowed and broken, awake. . . . Awake!
Lament stolen riches.
Gather strength from volatile convictions muted.
Start again, charging through disorienting vistas.
“These are dangerous days
To say what you feel is to dig your own grave”
-from “Black Boys on Mopeds”
Courage knows no age.
So, wear fearlessness like medieval armor.
Inhale another breath and forge ahead.
No retreat; grab cynics by the collar.
“All I want to do is just sit here
And write it all down and rest for a while”
-from “The Emperor’s New Clothes”
Lessons delayed remain lessons learned all the same.
Feel no shame, wanting what is not yet got.
Recapture passions misplaced in the past.
For neglected goods shall eternally be sought.